Scene X (Draft from 7/3/11)

Cole says he and Zero didn't make it to the beach today. He said he felt sick, but I know he was probably just faking it because he didn't want to spend too much alone time with Zero, but he didn't want to say "no" in fear of getting kicked out (something that is one of the main sources of tension between us). That made me feel a little better about last night. I had to take a Klonopin (which I hate, due to a previous overdose and 3 days of lost memories) just to sleep, because my mind was too wide awake--over analyzing every detail about the day's events, doubting itself, questioning its sanity, and fantasizing about the object at the very root of all of my confusion.

Their arms touched. I probably shouldn't date a hooker.

So this one time I let this guy suck my dick for drugs.